A piece of mi mind

“She’s so smart” “I got to pass this exam!”
“She’s a capable individual” “I better do the best I can…”
“She’s such a great child” “Come on now, mi, smile! You need to look good.”

Maybe that’s just me, but I’m not surprised if you (dear reader), have had the same thoughts one way or another- Being so afraid to disappoint, so stressed to meet expectations, so bounded by others’ definitions… It feels like… nobody knows who you really are anymore. They think they know, but they have no idea. Not that what they perceive is not true, it’s just that there’s so much more to you than that- you’re deeper than what they see. But no, that’s a side of you that you can never show. Thinking about it, what for? What good is there to show it? They prefer to see you the way they perceive you now. And besides, how do you start?

Simple

Brace yourself, prepare your heart, and pray to God- ask Him to break down these walls that you’ve built up in the heart and mind of your life that’s keeping you from loving Him with your all.

How can I share this so that it wouldn’t just make sense, but register in your life? May the Holy Spirit prompt your heart, and correct me if I’m wrong, but…

As Christians, we strive to live our lives for the glory of God. And it’s so… hard. We’re told to rejoice always, to pray without ceasing and to give thanks in everything- which would pretty much translate to: be positive- smile always; “God” this “God” that; and don’t complain.

We should carry ourselves in such a manner that whoever sees us would exclaim “(S)he’s a Christian for sure- just look at how (s)he’s so holy, holy, holy!” Oh yes, not to mention being “mocked” by our friends because we’re believers- what an honor! It’s definitely hard, but truly that’s who we need to portray ourselves because… well, we’re Christians. We have God in our lives. We’re changed- a new creation. How else will they know what God can do for them if we don’t carry ourselves right? Yes, for God, the one who loved us so much to die on the cross for our sins, that’s the least we should do! In fact, if we say we love God with all our heart, soul, strength and mind; this is the very least we can do!

I used to think that way.

Wow, was life tough. Not that it’s difficult to do all the abovementioned tasks, it’s just that it comes to a point where you don’t know how to ask for prayer support for the stresses in your studies or work because you’ve always looked strong! So you ask your fellow brothers and sisters to “just pray that God will help me with my studies/work”.

That’s got to stop.

Life as a Christian should look like that, yes; but it should not “feel” that way… We don’t live our life “wanting” to please God and “making every effort” as though we have to force it or push ourselves. No. It should be a reaction- because God loves us SO much it’s only just natural for us to do that. Can’t get the picture?

Let’s put it this way- A wife doesn’t wake up every morning feeling “I love my husband so much! Oh if only he knew how my heart skips a beat at the sight of him!” There will be days when the feelings of love are very “shallow”; or sometimes, none at all. But love in a marriage is more than a feeling. It’s a knowing.
So the wife might not feel very loving towards her husband- that doesn’t mean she will not do everything that she usually does for him because she feels that way. No. Because she doesn’t need to feel he loves her all the time or feel that she loves him all the time, to do something loving for him. And no, I don’t think it’s a “habit” because “she’s always done it”. I think it’s love.

It’s so much easier to say “God is good to me” when our prayers are answered; “Our Heavenly Father is so amazing” when we’re involved in a Christian event / just participated in one; live a more Christ-like life when we’re on fire for God or in church with fellow believers. But this “feeling” is not supposed to be a feeling. It’s supposed to be a knowing.

Do you know that you love God? Enough to live for Him without having to “force” and “push” yourself to do all that you do?


“Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your strength and all your mind.”

Where it begins

What a year it has been. It has been nothing but absolutely amazing. The memories are priceless. Money does not come close to buying it. Life’s been different since. From the very start, He made it happen. The hurt, the tears, the pain, the confrontations, the truths.

Then it began.

The smiles came. The warmth, the comfort, the peace, the memories, the treasures, and the stories came. And He made that happen too.

A year ago, we never knew. But a year later, we know so much. So much more. It’s His blessing to us. To Mi, to Me. We didn’t only keep the memories, we get to keep the friendship. So much was learned, taught, and lived. All in one year.

One simple year. Can you believe it?

I know both Mi and Me are still very much overwhelmed by this fact. And still very amazed by how it happened and how Daddy was in it from the very beginning. *points fingers at God*

A year ago. That was when it all started. Our stories, our memories. His blessing for us. His story for us. To tell you will take too long. And we’ll have to take you way back.

Now, here, it’s where it begins. A beginning of another memory. But hey, maybe we’ll take you back a year ago, where it all started and the stories thereafter *wink*

That’s what “MuLLiNG” is after all. We’ll leave you to wonder what happened and what will happen for now. Just for a little while. We’ll tell His story soon. His story for us.

Till then, live His miracles for you.

Love always, Me.